Practice in a rehab of myself

I am practicing 2 not talk I just want have two eyes open and look without love & no friendship no honesty no sympathy no help no love no love and no love.
I ve being punished by best and closest to be honest and have a big mouth to being real friend. People are running away when you are taking mirror and show them their faces to themselves, they're running away from not you but they own. They are running away from them self.  They're afraid to be killed buy their own eyes. I think the same thing happens for me beside I got a mirror in front of myself and I saw myself.  I saw a girl with a big mouth that that it doesn't stop talking. I have to learn to close it to shut it.